Poll Results Defy Expectations

I put up the reader polls to get an idea of what my small reader base is like. What type of person enjoys my blog? Do they have a big cock or no cock at all? Do they masturbate? Enjoy pornography? Do they get enough sex? All subjects I am wildly interested in, and the outcome always surprises me.

The results I've gleaned from a few polls are the exact opposite of what I was expecting. Out of the respondents so far, only 10% are gay, 30% are bisexual, and the rest are straight. I did not predict this result!

Are there any straight men visiting my site regularly? If so, I got news for you: you're not straight.

If any of my straight visitors are ladies, are you free tonight? ;-)

Libido Back On Track

Between writing my fantasy story about the figure drawing and yesterday's post of some hot video clips, my sex drive is back in full swing. Once again I've been jerking off to pretty much only gay material, a few tranny and bisexual episodes in between; but for the most part it's been all gay. I think I'm intoxicated with the idea of experiencing what it's like to get a guy hard. To experience that power and control that women must feel over men, straight men anyway, that they could do something sexy and he'd just melt like putty in her hands. The power of subtle sexual control, by being the cause of his erection, the knowledge that grabbing hold of and massaging his cock would be a sensation he could not resist. I think a lot of why I am so attracted to gay fantasies is because of the aspect of envy, that I am jealous of women's control over men. If I was with a man, I might experience some of that power trip, and frankly it'd be just plain fun to have a man paralyzed with arousal. And being a guy, at least I know not to leave him hanging with blue balls, as a fellow guy I'd have enough sense to finish the job.

Cock Shot a Day

There's a popular YouTube video where a guy took a picture of himself for like three years and then compiled and posted it. The moment I saw it I wanted to do the same for my cock. A webcam shot a day for many months, then post on the web. This blog gives me the platform to do that.

So three days ago I started my project. I doubt I'll be able to get a shot a day - exactly - but the cumulative effect will be the same. It might actually be better, since the cock is much more expressive and takes on a variety of shapes, sizes, and positions daily, so I bet there'll be a sporadic, improvised quality to it.

I'm looking forward to completing my project, once there are enough pics for a small clip I will post a preview.

UPDATE: I just saw this post and said OH SHIT! It reminded me I'm supposed to be doing this damn project. I'm 5 days behind on my daily shots, so I'm not sure if I should start over, catch up and fake it, or give up entirely. There's few things I remember to do every single day, and taking a snapshot of my dick ain't one of 'em. I must be lazy. I want to see the end result -- a moving collage of 365 sequential cock photos -- but don't want to have to commit to what it's going to take to get there.

Moved From Xlogz

I moved this blog over from Xlogz today, so that explains why there are posts dated before my join date.

The main reason I moved is because Blogger offers a warning page for adult content blogs. Also, their software is more intuitive than Wordpress. The ease of use makes up for having less features overall, and Blogger has much better social networking capability.

I welcome any feedback, comments, or suggestions.

Attention Surplus Disorder

Since I started coming out on this blog and revealing my secret sexual thoughts and revelations, my sex drive has felt like a Ferrari with the throttle stuck open.

I’ve jerked off no less that three times a day since I started this blog, sometimes as much as five times a day. The skin on my cock has started to get calloused! And even has been rubbed raw on more than one occasion. The problem with sex blogs is that you get all aroused thinking, writing about, and expressing sexual thoughts all day.

Soon my libido will have to take a rest. Dicks are meant to plunge into warm, moist, tight holes, with the help of some form of lubrication. Rough, dry, palms and fingers are a last resort. But as the sexual tension builds while I discuss my own taboos, the constant bulging and shrinking cycles in my shorts have got my balls swelled up as big as goose eggs!

I am in need of service with a happy ending like a fish needs water. Anyone care to help?

About This Blog - Updated

This blog is the result of an open love affair with my cock. The writings and photos contained are compiled from a ten year study of narcissism and sex with myself, and document my solo adventures. It is meant to be a work in progress, and I eventually intend to touch upon every reflection and revelation of, about, and from my affair. The blog will serve as a Cockumentary of my self discovery, and acceptance that my gay side deserves as much attention as my straight side.

UPDATE 1: Some of you have asked about my gay short stories. They are fiction. At the time of this update, I have still not had my first gay experience. When I have it, believe me dear readers, you will know. My stories are just my writing about what kinds of experiences I fantasize about, and ways that I would like my first time to go. You can find all of them tagged as gay short stories. All of my writing about straight sex will almost always be a true story.

I'm happy to see people following this blog. Enjoy!

UPDATE 2: This blog has evolved into a greater monologue about myself and my thoughts than I originally intended, but I am enjoying the organic quality of what comes up for me day to day. It has become an outlet of expression that I have long been needing, and has brought me through a personal evolution to places I might not have otherwise been able to go. I am grateful for the friends I have made through the deeply personal expression that is this blog.